The Old Days

i finally get the urge to move and
when i try to stand
i find it’s not so easy
to dust myself off

there are vines
there are roots
holding me back
and keeping me still

i fight and i struggle
but i then resign myself
to just being a tree
planted in a computer chair.

The Law of Post-Initial Reactions

There’s a moment that is barely noticeable
that happens between disbelief and realization
when you trip or when you suffer some sort of physical trauma.
In this moment, a million emotions flash through your head.
Anger, embarrassment and sadness are among the most prominent.
These feelings fly through your body at the speed of light
until realization hits.
After which you register one of those emotions and hold on to it
until you get over your recent trauma
or you vacate the area where the trauma happened,
which ever comes first.

Sinking Thoughts

When emptiness sings

Hollow songs that fill my head

I can do nothing but sink deeper

Into an ocean with no buoyancy

Surrounded by fleeing fish

And salty water

Loneliness never tasted so bitter

And the quiet never sounded so loud

When will sanity finally do me in

When will i hit the bottom

When will You become my reality