Showing posts with label time. Show all posts
Showing posts with label time. Show all posts

Monday, April 8, 2013

あの時に

When I got up the courage to speak


when every rain drop weighed a thousand pounds


when all my fear dissolved into nothing


when you took my pain and gave me flowers


when you took the flowers and gave me pain


when my anger was all that I had


when paper was all that I had


when I wanted to abandon the world


when I wanted to be fictional


when I won’t live here anymore


when I was terrified of the future


when I’m ashamed of my past


when I was completely alone


when I am alone


when I will be alone


when all I could think about was me


when all I could think about was anime


when all I can think about is you


when I’ll be a million miles from anyone who speaks my language


when I’ll be sad that everyone speaks my language


when I only had that street light for comfort


when I’m falling


when I hurt you


when I’m a fool


when I’m a nerd


when I’ll look back


when I evaluate myself


when I look at what’s left


and when I see you still standing beside me.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

The End of an Era

The passage of time,
the moving of furniture.

the sound of heavy sighing
and the uncomfortable silence.

a deep, unnerving silence.

and an unbelievably heavy discussion.

my heart sinks
and my head overheats.

too much is happening
too much is falling.

life is ever changing

and in this moment,
i cannot say;
"when when everything changes
nothing changes”

because nothing is constant.

and everything is shaking.


my heart gets heavier
my head feels lighter.

dizziness pulls me out of my delusion.
as i stagger down the hall

nothing to hold onto.

free falling again.

my ever present nightmare
my every present condition.

my all encompassing reality.

always falling.

as the room empties.
and the occupants leave.

i struggle to keep my head afloat
long enough to say my goodbyes.

this is my good night.