On Taming Tongues

The hardest thing about shutting up
will always be
swallowing my pride
and letting silence speak instead of me

silence won't always look golden
but words already spoken
can never be silenced

what i cast in impure metal
will never be gold

what should be said
rarely sees the light of day

while what should never
see the light of day
pollutes the air

What is my strength
and what do my words matter?
when i say absolutely nothing
in the loudest voice

all i spit
only repulses, creates disharmony
and sprays on all those around me

building nothing but rust
debilitating and destroying

so cast me down
and take my speech

I'd rather be force fed meaningful silence
than gorge myself with meaningless words
that only get thrown up on those nearest me

let my silence make others golden

Ties on the Floor

i see fluttering

white sheets

torn paper

folded like butterflies

in freefall

soundless descension

there’s black ink

scribbled inside

like names

They are names,

i sigh

in recognition

names i know

my name

every one

There’s no help

no comfort

no words

in fluttering sheets

discarded; useless

dying moths

the last paper

scrapes floor

and rests

it’s like snow

these sheets

deafening: monochromatic

and i stand

silently staring

all lost

in a room

by myself

with only myself

When I Can't Feel Anything

i couldn’t feel You in the wind

i couldn’t feel You in the impassioned words

i couldn’t feel You in the drum beat

i couldn’t feel You in the rain

i couldn’t feel You in the heartfelt lyrics

i couldn’t feel You in the glow of lights mixed with dust that night

i couldn’t feel You in the passion of those around me

i couldn’t feel You in the music

i couldn’t feel You in the images displayed

i couldn’t feel You in the lasers, the smoke and the mirrors

i couldn’t feel You in the heat

i just couldn’t feel You in those moments

but that didn’t stop me from knowing

that You were there

that You are here

that You will be here

that You inspire heartfelt lyrics

that You stir up the winds

that You remove the dust from my eyes

that You cause rain to fall

that You shake the earth

that You stand, unmoving

that You will never end

that You are King of kings

and that You still move in moments when feeling is fleeting

When i can’t feel anything

i can’t help but sit in silence

knowing that You’re still there

no matter what i feel.

long live the King

forever is Your reign