Candle

The room is dark
seemingly empty.
there is twitching
enchanting light.

purposely positioned
on the only object
visible in this room

centered.
it jumps
glides
pours itself
over the edges

cascading light
weaved
into the darkness.

shadows jump
dart
and pulse
about the room.
running
and hiding

each twitch
reveals
and hides
parts of this room

a literal struggle.
light
dark

war is waged
for sight
and blindness

between
illumination
and shadows.

Maybe it was because of no sleep, that this happened

there’s a dull lull 

whispering pain,

and it creeps through my head.

as rhythms and melodies feed directly into the deeper and darker parts of my skull

 

i watch

a curtain slowly dance to its own beat

as cold air fills the room.

 

light, like a dying moth

flits and flutters

scattering its accents

in various, seemingly nonsensical 

spots on the floor, roof

and walls

 

i try to think of anything else

than things i see

but nothing comes

no deeper meaning

just observation.

 

and i see cars

as they pass by

outside, through the thin white veil

that allows the light to lazily fill the room.

 

catching my eye, due to the sun’s reflection off their windows

and metal bodies.

 

and because of the window,

that does as good of a job blocking sound

from the outside world,

as the thin white sheet covering this window

does at blocking light from this room,

 

i can hear them.

 

as they creep underneath my window

i can hear them fly by 

on the freeway

less than a mile away.

 

and nothing comes,

no reason for justification

no frustration at stolen sleep

at the hands of thin windows,

nothing but mindless observation. 

 

and that’s perfectly fine with me

Nico Robin (Diligence and Vigilance Lost)

feelings are fleeting
but my existence
is not.

torn in two
the cut
that will not heal
and continues to bleed

losing focus
drowning in
dizziness

the cut
gets scraped
and opens wider
every day

i am now nothing
but the wound
that defines me

no one comes near
no one come near

and just let me die
let my eyes close
as i float away
into darkness

If You’re going to save me
then just give me resolve
just give me purpose

just let this wound close
once and for all