Bacon and Nemo

The end never came
the world never ended
sitting on my bed

listening to sounds of things frying
and movies quietly playing

i lay in remorse
i cringe at myself

how am i so circular
how do i fall

so frequently
why do i ignore the signs

why do i let things get worse

the sound of things frying
my movie softly playing

we lay in regret
remorse and great fear

as pain and loss grip us

my vision falls to pieces

the sound of things frying
the hum of the movie

back to my brain
inside this trainwreck

how do i sit here
so alone
and so quiet

why do i not care
why do i even care

alone in my world
alone in my head

where did i place you
where can i find you

while the sound of things frying
overwhelm my cold senses

and the murmur of movies
instill quite empty staring

You know that i seek You

You know what i look for

then why do i keep You
at such a far distance

what leads me in circles
what gives me the cuts

what covers my bones

what does my heart hear

where does my heart look

what does my heart feel

the sound of things frying
and the movie drones on

i find You for a day
an hour
…five minutes

then i’m off
i fall
and get covered in mud

what covers my bones
what does my heart listen to

this prison is unbreakable
my skin blocks my words

bouncing off the outmost layer
and reverberate back to my brain.

i’m trapped
and i can’t even see You

i am no dog
howling at the moon

just a creature with hands
infected and crippled

full of regret
wishing i could reach You

i wish i could see You
i wish i could feel You
i wish You could hold me
even suffocate me

just please don’t let go

but i constantly wonder
will i ever reach the end
will i ever wear You out

will You turn Your head and walk
somewhere i can never reach you…

when i know what i’ve done
smelling things frying
thinking i’m worthless
watching movies crescendo

will You still take me back


just please
don’t let go

please don’t let go

will i ever grow up

to not need to hide away?

to take life head on?

will i ever learn my lesson

and this problem ever lessen?

will You still stay with me
even though
i know i will fall
get scraped up
and covered in mud?

will You scold me and stand me
up and direct me
will You never give up on me

as i never give up
looking up
and knowing where to turn?

…

I am creator
I’ve seen greater folly

watched nations fall
and men turn away

but my Love never changed
my heart never stopped

when one of them stumbled
and crashed with a burn

so in your mind
rages
things that will end

unlike my nature
I will follow you through

I’ve been through all time
I’ve seen all the problems

and listen to My words
Now sit still and be quiet

I will not leave you
so don’t flatter yourself

My Grace is unending
draw close as I whisper

you cannot surprise Me
you cannot outrun Me

just fall asleep in My arms
I won’t let you go.

do not forget this

I always love you
no matter what happens